I'm so depressed that I can not sleep.... I think about people around me... people without essence.. people that will not hear what I really think about 'em ... If I really say what I want... I won't have what is called friend.... but the pain is too much.. and sorrow kills me more each time ... I just want to be it... One day I will do it.. and I'm going to lose...lose... everything... even my family... maybe... and I will feel the repentance...
so... Voldan is the only one I love.. is with me... and it makes me feel better.... it's me... it's my essence.... My beloved essence... my reason to live...
let my essence free
let the true w